I don't have any advice to offer, but I do feel what you are going through, as I am in the same boat, also around the same age.
I had a very sheltered life, and that didn't help. Friends have moved on - to bigger jobs, having families and kids etc, while I feel like I'm a big failure (well - I make decent money, have some job - that's pretty much my "achievement" in life). Most of them are no better than I, in terms of intelligence or ability. I suppose where I failed, was execution. These days I get depressed often, though I am getting better at not showing it outside. Suicidal thoughts have crossed my mind, more than once.
Anyway - I just thought I'd say that you are not alone. There are probably more people like us.
In terms of what can be done to change (my situation is probably more complicated than yours, as an immigrant) - I am not sure. I've often wondered if it would be nice to have a support group (or a mastermind group) that can help - without judging and without being harsh. I haven't found one yet. If you like to get in touch, reply to this comment. May be we can support each other, may be we can find others. If not, good luck. My thoughts are with you.
I had a very sheltered life, and that didn't help. Friends have moved on - to bigger jobs, having families and kids etc, while I feel like I'm a big failure (well - I make decent money, have some job - that's pretty much my "achievement" in life). Most of them are no better than I, in terms of intelligence or ability. I suppose where I failed, was execution. These days I get depressed often, though I am getting better at not showing it outside. Suicidal thoughts have crossed my mind, more than once.
Anyway - I just thought I'd say that you are not alone. There are probably more people like us.
In terms of what can be done to change (my situation is probably more complicated than yours, as an immigrant) - I am not sure. I've often wondered if it would be nice to have a support group (or a mastermind group) that can help - without judging and without being harsh. I haven't found one yet. If you like to get in touch, reply to this comment. May be we can support each other, may be we can find others. If not, good luck. My thoughts are with you.